It's been a long time! It's a long time of meandering the beaten down path of making excuses-for every failure, every goal not met, for what I have gone through and what I am going through! Not realizing that this path is not taking me anywhere ideal... just keeping me safe, safe from taking responsibility, safe from facing my fears, facing the challenges that come my way. Excuses have chocked my life proposes, my dreams and goals.
Thinking about these things made me realize, what a sorry state I am in. In a podcast with Brene Brown, Emanuel Acho said, "Some people don't play with the cards they're dealt with. They play with what they wish they're dealt with." That was exactly me. I had come to a place where I am complaining, because things are not the way I want them to be. I am an adult having a meltdown, not accepting what I am given.
The way forward is not to rue over the time wasted, opportunities not taken, but rather take whatever is given, whatever is available and turn them into success and achievement. With the mindset that had set into my habits and seeping into the core of my character, of how I see myself, these all seem impossible. But it's impossible only as long as I cage myself in the box of my self image which is so chrushed with failures.
The word of God in 2 Corinthians 12:9 says, my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in your weakness." The God who made the universe and who has formed me knows who I am. He has made me for much greater than I would even imagine. Yes, my flaws are still with me, but his power can be made perfect in all my flaws and weaknesses. I claim this promise. God is my strength. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
